29 October 1956 With all this “Thompson” interference business with Kurt – I think I have learned one lesson. I am not always sure of what I am doing, and this stems back to my association with my mother. When I disagreed with her she tried to make me look like an idiot, or a … Continue reading 29 October 1956 →

27 October 1956 Between “objectivity” & “subjectivity” lies “selectivity”.

25 October 1956 This morning Nancy was talking about her English class and Miss Joseph again. Seems Billy and many other of the youngsters find her a crazy-mixed-kid. Well I can see their point of view. Miss Joseph does not have an integrated mind. She runs off in all kinds of directions – blowing hot … Continue reading 25 October 1956 →

23 October 1956 This morning as Kurt was leaving the house, Billy asked him to go over his German spelling words. Kurt would have liked to help Billy – but it was not the time to do so. Kurt had to go to work. I gave Billy his spelling in German. One page he knew … Continue reading 23 October 1956 →

22 October 1956 For several weeks now, something has been disturbing me. What it is I have [not] been able to pinpoint. It has something to do with a pattern in me – emotional and unreasonable – that has been stirred up by Blanche. She has predecessors. She is not the first who has brought … Continue reading 22 October 1956 →

19 October 1956 “The difference between a man and a boy is that when the going gets tough the man keeps going; the boy seeks an excuse to drop out.” “The difference between a great athlete and a fair athlete is that a great athlete never admits the possibility of failure.”

4 October 1956 Progress report on Kurt Zachmann: Was a Y.M.C.A. counselor for 2 years.Went ahead and made 2 more speeches at work afterhis first speech was a flop.Spoke up with a good, hard, sound arguments whenCharlie Vaughn was made his superior. I’m routing for Kurt’s fight! I’m irrevocably on his side and aiming for … Continue reading 4 October 1956 →

2 October 1956 Something has been othering me since plunging into this “Export” deal with Blanche came up. I have not been able to put my finger on it. Unconsciously the trouble has been creeping to the surface. I realize, as I opened this notebook and glanced at my 9/30/56 notes this morning. I woke … Continue reading 2 October 1956 →